Showing posts with label Jodge Ledesma. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Jodge Ledesma. Show all posts

Sunday, September 12, 2010

ON WITCHES IN THE PHILIPPINES

I grew up in the Philippines fascinated with stories about witches. I remember my yaya (nanny) would often fright me with various stories about witches so that I'd be a good girl and get myself home before dusk.

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In my country, the witch is locally called "aswang". It's also known as "bruha", "mangkukulam", "boroka", "mangalok", "tik-tik", "wak-wak", "wuk-wuk", "manananggal" and so many more depending on which part of the Philippines we are in. I'm used to the word "aswang" though... which refers to it being the one that cast spells, one that shifts into various forms, a monster, a ghoul and a flesh-eating creature.

The flesh-eating version is more common in Philippine folklore. They say that it takes various human forms that may appear as a beautiful woman or an ugly old woman who carries a job...usually as a butcher.

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My yaya would tell me stories that the "aswang" is shape-shifter...having the ability to transform from human to animals and to inanimate objects. Yaya said that when darkness sets in, the "aswangs" begin to hunt for their prey and that the prime targets are the sick, the children, the corpses and pregnant women. In Philippine horror movies, they would often show pregnant women as victims. I've watched the "aswang" so many times flying over house roofs and look for holes to peer on and to look for helpless pregnant women. When finding one, the "aswang" extends its tongue into the pregnant woman's womb, draining the fetus of its' blood and eventually killing both the mother and the fetus. The clicking sound it makes... "kikik" .... comes out as it draws blood.

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The "aswang" stories are still very much believed all over the Philippines. Although these stories are generally ignored and dismissed as a mere folklore, many still adorn their houses with garlic, salt, ginger and holy water to keep the "aswang" away.

I practically grew up in Negros Occidental having little pieces of garlic safely pinned on hemlines of my clothes. Yes, my yaya firmly believes about "aswangs" that she would really go out of her way to look for me at neighbors' houses when the sun is about to set in.

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There were some local news in my province that I remember having surfaced... talking about "aswang stories" in this decade!

August 2003 - A man from Don Salvador Benedicto, Negros Occidental hacked and shot his aunt and cousin because he believed they were "aswangs"... having cast a curse on his wife who died 3 days after child birth the year before.

September 2005 - A husband and wife were hacked to death and decapitated in Sitio Inapugan, Barangay Santol, Binalbagan. Ugh... Binalbagan was my hometown...where I actually grew up as a kid.

My yaya had a personal experience of her getting sick when she crossed paths with an "aswang" on her way to their home. Apparently, the witch disliked my yaya and yaya said she had the "aswang" frequently visiting her at nights while she was burning up with fever. The smell of a pungent insect (I forgot what it was called) was said to come before the aswang would actually announce it's arrival with that same tongue-clicking sound "kikik". That announcement was said to have caused her parents to shut doors and windows and scatter garlic and salt all over the house.

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If you ask me If I believe in witches or the "aswangs", I'd say, "I don't know" because seriously, half of me does and half of me doesn't. Maybe it's because I am somehow a witch ha ha ha as my lover told me last year that I bewitched him. Ah well! I hope I won't ever see the day or night encountering a real "aswang" though.

Photos by: Mark Longos, Vincent Garrucho and Aries Alvarez
Location: Port St. Michel (Thanks to Allan Tom)
Model: Xhialey De Guzman
Hair and Make Up: Edz Diomampo
Concept and Style: Jodge Ledesma

Saturday, September 4, 2010

CROSSROADS

There comes a critical point in time where critical choices must be made and that's what I call crossroads.

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At some point in our lives, we are all faced with a crossroad of some type or another... The changes in our bodies, the changes in intimate relationships, the terrifying disruptions of our status quo, the daily life-and-death dramas which gives us loss of direction, motivation, enthusiasm and self-esteem. We suddenly have our fears, our griefs, confusions, depressions, and furious rages and suddenly the realization that life is all about the choices we make. We are humans... we make mistakes... we miscalculate.

When we make bad calls, it's not simple and never easy to fix. We get hurt, we bleed, we struggle at every piercing pain and we agonize for such snap judgments made that we knew would haunt us forever. We spend all our lives worrying about future, planning for the future, predicting the future that's always changing despite of it becoming the home of our deepest fears and wildest hopes. No one knows the future and the future is never the way we imagine it to be. In the end, we face crossroads of our lives... finding the will to escape... and escaping from the situation is about making a choice.

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I am currently at a crossroad and again, I have to make a critical choice. After all, when the dam bursts, what am I supposed to do? Swim, right?

I'm taking a deep breathe right now like it is my last then I'm heading to tread waters again to stay alive. Some things in life just have to be learned the hard way and evading them is counter-productive and eventually destructive. The only way to get through them is to actually go through them.

Thanks, Vincent for the perfect images for this blog.

Monday, August 30, 2010

ON SECRETS AND FANTASIES

We humans tend to forget how good it feels when we finally are able to set secrets free. Whether it be good or bad, and whether we like it or not, at least they're out in the open.

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When our secrets are out in the open, we don't have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with all secrets is... even when we think we are in control, we are not.

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When do we learn that fantasy is made to be simple...that the pleasure is good and twice as much pleasure is better? When do we learn that pain is bad, and no pain is better? Reality is entirely different indeed. The reality is that... pain exists to constantly remind us that there's only so much pleasure we can take.

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Maybe this is just fine and we just need to deal with it. Deal that maybe, some of our fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams.

Photography by: Vincent Garrucho
Model: Jodge Ledesma
Thank you, Vince... for my photo collection!!! :))

HOPE: FROM AN ADULT TO THE CHILDREN

There will come a point in your life, when you’re officially an adult. Suddenly, you’re old enough to vote, drink and engage in other adult activities. Suddenly, people expect you to be responsible... seriously, a grown-up. You will get taller... you will get older. But will you ever really grow up?

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I've heard that it is possible to grow up. In my years however, I've just never met anyone who’s actually done it.

Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves.

We throw tantrums when things don’t go our way.


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We whisper secrets with our best friend, in the dark.

We look for comfort where we can find it.

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And we hope against all logic, against all experience, like children, we never give up hope.

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Never give up hope.

Photography by: Jodge Ledesma and Vincent Garrucho
Models: Cody Ledesma and Maxine Garrucho
Thank you Vince... for my goddaughter's photo and for allowing me to post it here... :))

A CHILD'S DREAM ONCE UPON A TIME

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Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. I dreamed of so many good things in life when I was a child... child dreams for the future that are life changing and ones that really make eternal difference.

The childhood friends I've had used to sit and talk about it whenever we lazily relax after a fun play. I dreamed of being a painter and a writer... traveling to Greece and France to write about ancient history, life and things that fascinated me as a child... stuff that I read in books. My best friend Pinky dreamed of an ultimate dream... being a movie star. Jovic dreamed of being a professional athlete. Harry dreamed of being a pilot like his father. Other kids I grew up with dreamed of ultimate dreams but did those dreams make an eternal difference in our lives now?

30 years later as I look at my Facebook account and scouring over the profile pages of my friends, I realized that all our dreams back then never came true. Perhaps, our dreams did change along the way. I'm sure we all didn’t like the changes and for some time, we feared it... but we just couldn't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we leave the dream behind.

My epiphany today:
It really does hurt to grow not having dreams met when one takes time to think about it. Anybody who tells us it doesn’t, is lying. Pinky never made it to be a movie star, Jovic left life a decade ago and Harry, i don't know. So what? The truth is that even if our dreams weren't materialized... the more things change, the more they stay the same especially in our hearts. The dream is not over till my life is. The future is never the way we imagined it to be but against all odds, we evolved.

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Big thanks to Vincent Garrucho for the photos.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

ADAM LAMBERT LIVE IN MANILA OFFICIAL POSTER

Seen first here on my blog-spot :P, this is the official poster of Adam Lambert Live in Manila!

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Spread the word!!! 10-10-10 is the date with Adam Lambert!

Monday, August 23, 2010

A LIFE WITHOUT FACEBOOK...

...I simply cannot imagine it now.

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When I joined Facebook in May 2008, I was lonely. I felt like..."My friends are on MySpace and Friendster at the time and I'm among the millions of foreigners... seriously...People I don't know from Adam and Eve!".

Anyways, as I went through my life with Mark Zuckerberg's brilliant new world, I find myself sucked-in too deep. These are now my simple reasons because I don't want to get too "techy" for everyone (I refuse to show I've transformed from a major party animal to a geek ... which I really am now tee hee!):

1. I've seen how other friends and I dragged my own personal friends and acquaintances from other networks to Facebook since 2008. Now, they're all there! How the hell can I leave now?

2. I see more people I know from Adam and Eve now more than before. I see my own family! My sister hounds my wall constantly and my nieces are flooding my homepage all the time!

3. I see the first foreign friends of mine as my lifeline... they've become my family and best friends. Yeah... reading their posts, statuses, etc. told me a lot about their personalities and lives across the globe and that makes me feel I am part of their world too.

4. Mafia Wars... I'm a self-confessed addict! I mean... how can you not love this simple game? It will forever make you wonder why you got hooked in the first place! Plus, I got some best friends hooked too and they're dependent on me for Q&A's as if I'm a moderator of the game! Also, I love my Mafia Wars family :) They are my dream team for Mafia Wars... My Top Mafia!

5. Reading family and friends' posts / statuses brings me joy and some few pain! Loving most and hating some especially those with bad news and pathetic shout-outs... which reminds me constantly that I'm a human being. People comment... people exchange thoughts... it's gossip and I'm loving it!!!

6. What's new and what's hot... I see it all the time there! From wall posts to events to photos to gadgets to movies to causes to news to videos to music to blah blahs... my God... how can I leave this world?

7. I don't normally complain. If Facebook is user-friendly then I call myself a friendly user. I have nothing to complain on Facebook much because I know how to read and follow instructions so that I don't really get my private life spread all over the world! Yes, there is a thing called "Privacy Settings" which I constantly update since 2008. Try searching me on Facebook Search Engine. You won't find me at all unless you see me at a mutual friend's profile. Saves me from adding people I don't know and I don't like.

8. Admit it... Facebook makes you feel you're not alone in this world and you're popular!!! At least, that's how I honestly feel. I am popular among my friends and my family and my mafia family! I am not a loser! LOL!!!

9. I have all my photos there... of my family, of my friends, of my friends' friends, of strangers, of virtual friends that I fancy meeting in real life later on, of my own photography attempts and many more!!! I even lost count of the number of albums I have which is great because Facebook seems to handle infinity! LOL!!! Apart from it, I can tag my friends and it gets a viral effect! It amuses me that even the simplest photo from me can get some prime time in my news feed!!! Fun!!!

10. I discovered I have been messaging people more and more on Facebook than use my email addresses even when it comes to business! I think that the email addresses my personal contacts use in Facebook are more up-to-date than their regular email contact list because they don't effing respond to my emails at times that I end up just doing the "PM"!

So there!!! They are my 10 simple reasons why I can't quit.

THE FRONTIERVILLE REVIEW BY J. LEDESMA

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Zynga, the gaming king at Facebook recently came out with the best and most original game so far which has seriously very interesting social mechanics that gets a player hooked to the core. I have so far, no negative issue towards this new game that's growing fast.

I regularly play Friends For Sale (which Zynga only acquired from its' maker in September 2009) and Mafia Wars but in the past, I also tried Zynga Poker, Yoville, Farmville, Petville, Cafe World and Treasure Isle. Call me a Zynga-whore but I have always been a keen observer and player of their games. The latter games that I mentioned managed to keep me up until Level 30 and I let go of them due to lack of strategies to keep me playing. In short, I got bored. I usually play these during the beta stage but it is actually during beta stages that an online game can make me or break me.

Last Saturday, I accidentally clicked on a request to be a neighbor at FrontierVille and voila... my short-attention-span self was immediately captured.

In the beginning of FrontierVille alone, I felt alive! This game is not single-minded. It's complex yet I feel already that it will be more than complex. They managed to incorporate series of events that make that virtual world seem real... like the chores, the appearances of the snake that one needs to clobber to take it out and running out of life's energy just like humans.

Things I find interesting with FrontierVille which encouraged close and attentive playing:

1. FrontierVille is cute to begin with customizing your own avatar just like in Yoville.

2. One gets to buy crops, plant and harvest in certain time periods to gain coins and experiences or XP at FrontierVille.

3. The game makes the player complete tasks and actions just like in Treasure Island.

4. FrontierVille incorporated Mafia Wars' highly addicting "collection series" where one is task collect and complete items in exchange for rewards.

5. The game keeps you to make money like in Cafe World.

6. New events and real-time game play... it will just keep one going back and forth to play.

7. Bonus mechanics... they rock!!!

In a nutshell, here are the things that I am seeing myself to be doing for a long time and I mean not just up to Level 31:

1. I have to chop down trees to build structures such as barn, school, bars, churches and many more.

2. Clear grass away which by the way will keep on growing just like in the real world.

3. Plant and harvest crops to get money and food.

4. Feed the animals for food and money and also to sell them later on if I want to get rid of them.

5. Fighting wild animals like the snake which I am loving to do because it makes me feel I am actually clobbering fucked-up people I know.

6. Help my neighbors by tending their homestead and getting energy, popularity, food, clothing, etc. in return.

7. Marry a virtual spouse and create a virtual family (LOL) which makes it really really interesting and I wonder if later on, I can clobber my husband too If I catch him cheating!

There's so much more there to do just to tame the wilderness that could absolutely get you hooked! There's just no room for repeating things.... this game is absolutely brilliant!!!