Woke up with a heavy heart today and I realize that there are times in my life when I need to reassess myself... slowing down and readjusting my life's trajectory. Lately, I have been encountering burnouts that people can't see or don't notice in me. I have had several road bumps lately that caused me prolonged stress and I battle it every day.
Over the past years I have blogged about burnouts especially in my case that I am one human being that's 24/7 online owing to my profession. I have written about life management difficulty especially when there are things in our lives can turn our worlds upside down leaving us totally worn out and helpless, physically and mentally. Everything just seems look bleak and it is hard for us to gather all energy to care or let alone, do something to get out of it. Way back 2010, I confessed about experiencing burnout as an SEO... caused my world and my life to tilt fast. It is a vicious cycle. Yes, in my profession and most of us in the internet and social media, we struggle on this everyday after all, social media never really sleeps and that's what most people don't know about us..
It is just difficult to handle such a thing with technology interfering personal lives, personal activities and especially when one would get a punctured heart may it be owing to jealousy, an unfulfilled promise to loved one, not having the time for any intimacy, and so many more that a human heart experiences. This renders us to have this lack of emotion or apathy... the emotion is there though...all bottled up and waiting to burst. It's just dangerously nerve-wracking.
Here I go again, struggling to cope and overcome burnout. I know exactly what I need to do. I've been there before so I just have to hang in tough and continue to do what I need to do. Focus may be difficult but all I need is to slow down, pause, relax and re-evaluate my goals and priorities once more.
I am a toughie. I've always been. I can do this over and over again...it may take days, weeks, months to fully overcome. When a damn usually bursts, all I have to do is swim... no but's and if's. At the end of this all, I'm gonna smile again... a smile that takes only a special few to know that deep inside, I am okay and back on my feet. Nothing in life is not manageable and as as wise men used to say, "There is no rainbow, without a little rain".